Little Bits of Life

A total blah day, if not a blah experience here at school so far. Saw a gorgeous guy today while I was working. He's a grad student in engineering. Lol...I'm pathetic. I would love to see him again. He was nice. Great eyes...John was his name.

My cat Buyo died last night. It was the most miserable thing to watch. It came out of no where, and he was in so much pain. I never want to see anything like that again and will miss him so much.

You Are an Espresso

At your best, you are: straight shooting, ambitious, and energetic At your worst, you are: anxious and high strung You drink coffee when: anytime you're not sleeping Your caffeine addiction level: high

I do love espresso. On a negative note, I have another friend moving away. Why is it always the pilots? I'm also in a weird mood. Kind of...floating, I would say

No, I'm not on anything.

A quiz said that I take the Road Less Traveled By, but it will not show the image. Too bad.

So, I take the road less traveled by? Seems strangely accurate. My current state of life would testify to that. But I will continue to believe that I will only grow stronger from it.

I know that a lot of people hate it when blog things and quiz results are inserted into journal entries. Oh well. This one that I am now putting in is strangely accurate in describing my persona and what I am going through right now at this point in my life with my emotions, friends, family, outlook, etc. So I am placing it here on this page that people may have more of an understanding of me. Kudos to PainfulBliss on www.quizilla.com for coming up with such and insightful quiz.

~*~Result nr 4~*~


Your power is: Super Strength

Explanation: Your gift is rather self
exlainig. But to clear things up, you have been
given a power that makes you extremly strong.
This is of course speaking in pyshical terms.
When doing good deeds the power could be used
as helping people in e.g. fights or those under
a fallen building etc. For bad purposes the
power could simply kill/beat anyone until the
gifted gets his way.
You are however as a person on the good side.
You are the leader type and have a tendancy to
look at the whole picture rather than details.
That could make you come off as inconsiderate,
but that's far from the truth. You can be
impulsive and aggressive but you mean no harm
with it. Sometimes it can even save you. If you
were to be in a group with others who have
super powers you would be focusing more on them
and the situation rather than yourself. So to
even it out, you can be egotistical at times,
but it's because you ignore your needs every
once in a while. You are responsible and brave
but could still be seen as reckless.
Negative aspects: Since you focus on the
team/family/group of friends you could start
thinking that they don't care about you since
they don't seem to look after you the way you
do to them. Also you could intentionally
endanger yourself (even in everyday life) when
doing descicions without thinking it through
that much. But a leader with more sense of
responsibility does not however come off as
reckless, but logical.

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On another note, I'm sick with a sinus infection and have been for days. Over a week, acutally. But I think that it is now starting to go away. I hope so, and am praying that it does. Anyway, it has held up my updating because between work and taking care of my family, I've been plum worn out and falling asleep on my feet. I have no idea what has kept me going this long.

Lastly, but certainly not least, a man in my church passed away today after a long struggle with leukemia. My prayers, and maybe even yours, are with him and his family. His two sons are in their twenties and will be having a hard time with this, and of course his wife too. He was a good man and will be missed by all.

Okay, here I go, making the effort to update a story, and I delete the new additions! Of course I hadn't saved yet too. Okay, well needless to say, I'm pissed. It may be a little while longer before ~You're not Alone~ chapter 15 gets out because right now I'm so mad I can't think what to write anymore. Major GRRRRRRRRRRR!

Thoughts of English and Japanese constantly run through my mind. So much to do. I think that it is time for me to take what God has given me a desire for an plan my life, ignoring the other things that were holding me back. After all, anything can influence my plans and change them accordingly as new parts of my life unfold. I have to learn how to strike a balance between having a plan and shooting hold-heartedly toward it and then leaving room for compromise.

I can do this. I know that I can, and the more excited I get about it, the easier it will be for me. Now that I know what direction to take, however, what should I do with those directions? Now I need to know the ending plan to my efforts and just GO FOR IT with all that I am, all while keeping my priorities in line.

Difficult, yes. Impossible. Never.

I have to keep remembering that nothing is impossible. I am bound by limits. God isn't, and he's the one who ultimately has control.

I have so much to learn.

Totally in a bummed mood right now and though I know part of the reason why, I am never going to admit it. Not that that helps me at all, but oh well. There are some things that just will have to remain unsaid. I have to work tomorrow, and it's starting to look good...

I think that sometimes I am the biggest beotch in the world, tonight being one of those times. My friends, my friend since from the time I was a little girl are starting to get to me. There are so many things now, especially since I've spent a year on my own, that separate us. Maturity (not to be vain) is a huge difference now, and there are things that in the sincerest aspect of my being I hold dear and respect that the others simply disregard or openly admit that they will not take any account for.

I have now seen heartless words be thrown about as if there is no tomorrow, and while I gently point these things out, they do not want to even consider what has been said to them. Yet, I am responsible for heeding all that is said to me.

Strange.

I love them dearly and always will, but I'm at the point in my life where I really just need a group of friends that understand. I had that in Indiana. We all had gone through too much together not to be close, and I miss that.

Oh well. I am ranting. And life will continue on.

1:30am, can't sleep, and bored out of my mind. Check these out for entertainment. Could be fun!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

Your Birthdate: March 6

A birthday on the 6th of the month adds a tone of responsibility, helpfulness, and understanding to your natural inclinations. Those born on the sixth are more apt to be open and honest with everyone, and more caring about family and friends, too. This is a number associated with responsibility and caring - this birthday lends a degree of concern for others.

You're Element is Water. You are soft and serene at
most times but like Wind, you're scary when
you're angry. You proabaly have a talent is
singing and even your speaking voice is lovely.
You have an innocent type of beauty that makes
you look younger than you are and you like
close relationships with people. (please
forgive me if you cannot see the pics. If you
go to my userpage then you can see your result
picture at the bottom)


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